Monday, May 19, 2008
{ 10:35 pm }
there's nothing much going on in my life or rather there's nothing interesting going on in my life. it's pretty routinal in that sense but somehow i like it that way. not a big fan of surprise unless it's a pleasant surprise. however, since it's a surprise, how is one suppose to know if it's pleasant or not?
me and ifa realised that we are very attached to these 2 guys that we feel too much for them but honestly, we don't mind cos there's no one else these 2 can count on. i do wish that it happens to any other guys but them. it just make me realise how dear they are in my eyes and how i care deeply for them ah.
i'm drifting from one guy to the next one too many times and this is bad. The adrenaline rush i used to feel is fast fading away. In this short span of few months, i think i felt infatuation more than once. it's freaking irritating cos whenever i tell a close friend about a new guy i get jazzed up for, she will roll her eyes and say, "tell me something new." haha. i guess i can be a bit of a hopeless romantic.
hanya aku separuh nyawa, menahan sebak di dada sedangakan kau bersahaja berlalu tanpa kata. terasa diri amat terhina kau lakukan.
Friday, May 09, 2008
{ 1:03 pm }
when i saw the ex-students taking their gradution robes these few days, i really felt a pang of regret. regret that i didn't choose this route from the beginning. however this really spurs me on to complete this diploma and not just complete it for the sake of completing but i also wanna do exceptionally well. gawd, i've heard this few sentences before from my own mouth repeatingly but out of those few times, how many times do i really mean it man?
polytechnic life is not much different from jc life. the tutorials and assignments are as overwhelming as jc's one but however in poly, the ambience is certainly more relaxing. perhaps the only drawback that i can think of being in poly is that the classmates are a tad younger but yet that didn't make mixing around anymore difficult. i guess i'm just freaking young at heart and in terms of essence too. go on people, puke all you want. i don't know which is better: to grow up fast and miss all the endearing childish experience or no not to grow up at all and live through everyday being ignorant.
