farking, farking hungry lah! only had the patty of bk's tendergrill and a couple of onion rings in the afternoon. somehow your appetite will just shrink when you makan alone and fark it lah! i'm still craving for ayam penyet and this reminds me of an incident that happened last month. me and ifa were sitting at the normal place at cwp and she suddenly told me not to be mad at her as she's gonna broke a news to me. now, all sort of thoughts were running in my head and the big freaking news was that she ate ayam penyet without me. :( lol. something to be upset about. aaaargggh! as i'm typing now, my stomach is grunting and demanding for food lah. stop stuffing yourself with food lah ain. how many pounds more will you wanna add to your cheek. but then again, it's my freaking problem lah...i'm damn hungry what! I can always starve myself to death and hence be stick-thin in my next life.i wish! =]
i went through my secondary school report book the other day when I realised that when i entered Riverside, my weight was merely 38kg and the height was 150cm thereabout. and when the tolls of eating fast food almost everyday came rolling in during the secondary school years and of course when puberty hit and my butt had gotten disproportionately bigger(it still is btw), i gained 7 kg and left riverside as a happy goober whose weight was acceptable at 45 kg. sekali, came in swensen's ice-cream as an everyday routine in your life. that one damn parah i'm telling you 'cos i gained a freaking 10 kg. now the weight-gaining wasn't a problem but the denial in my part marked the spot on the map. of course, my close friends did noticed and had commented me about it and i was so damn sure of myself that it's just the cheeks lah cos it's the most prominent part and hence losing the xtra "1 or 2 kg" would just be one thing that i could easily do in a matter of days. but HUH! fat chance!(eh pun lah!). though i was a borderline overweight case in innova, i didn't need to go for TAF(which i wish i could have attend to come to think of it). my ego still can tahan all this shame of gaining tremendous amount of weight but one fine friday, i kena bombed big time. that was when i exploded and the ego wall came crushing down. an old good friend had put it down on her friend's friendster that i bloated. i was distraught. fifi can vouch that for me easily. what happened after that was totally bizarre heh. but i needed that reality check and somehow that spurred me to lose weight and through out the months in 2005 i managed to lose 5 kg and now i can proudly say that my weight is hovering between 48 and 50 kg. a tad heavier than secondary school but heck care. i'm happy now( although i reckon i can lose that chunk of weight from my thighs =p). i guess the essence from this naggy story telling of my non-interesting life is that there will be a point in pur life where our weight naik turon lah.literally, life got its ups and downs haha.. but honestly, a dosage of reality check can never harm and for god sake if you're not happy with your weight or with how you look, do something about it! i mean it's either that or you just have to live with it. excuse me cos this is just ranting on my part.
Thursday, March 20, 2008{ 9:48 pm }
the stomach's grumbling the mind's dreading the feet are dragging the tongue's twisting the eyes are closing the fingers aren't resting and the soul's complaining
start afresh.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008{ 11:40 am }
hello gossip girl!
and an even bigger HELLO topenn! heh. shoot me people!
Friday, March 14, 2008{ 4:10 am }
0dewa 19 is an awesome indonesian band that deserved all the respect that they get. ahmad dhani is a genius in his own right. sial lah! he produced all those addictive songs that get the people in nusantara rocking. now, i'm totally hooked to sedang ingin bercinta. aaargh! feel like getting their latest album: Republik Cinta.
2 hours ago, i was too caught up laughing that i unconsciously drank tea jeruk. you see, squid put a tablespooon of jeruk into my tea-o(which i already drank 80% of it. thank god) because of a joke that embot made about jeruk and i dunno why the hell squid must put that jeruk in my tea when he got his own freaking tea lah. i forget about my contaminated tea until i drank it accidentally. the moment i taste that jeruk in my mouth, i immediately spat it all out and fortunately there was a drain nearby. curse embot for bringing that jeruk joke up and curse squid for putting that jeruk in my tea. i swear that i can still taste the leftover of jeruk in my mouth. blueks. heh
aaargh! need to get up early in the am later!
Wednesday, March 12, 2008{ 3:11 pm }
for the very fact that there is nothing much going on in my life right now, i think it's pretty redundant for me to update every so often but sometimes i find it necessary for me to pen down some thoughts of mine in the middle of the night in my diary. uh huh, i still have a diary which looks all worn out and there isn't any shame in having to write down in a diary at this age. somehow, writing down your thoughts seemed more sentimental than blogging it down here but this is convenient.
i was kinda job-hunting(without going all out for it) when i received 2 tutoring offers this week and i'm gonna take it even though it will essentially mean that my social life is gonna be reduced to its minimal. but then again, what social life? anytime, show me the money, baby!
right now i'm anxiously waiting for the result of my poly application. i will be crushed lah if i don't get any of the courses that i want. it's a high time for me to get my brain up and going. i freaking need to get out of the house and do something substantial for my future which seem so bleak. crossing my fingers man.
anyways, just a few hours ago i met up with the girls and it had been too long. i will of course meet up with ifa almost daily and hanging out with sarah seem to be a weekly affair now but i can't recall the last time the whole group sat down at banquet and having our dinner together. oh and saidah bought us chocolates from genting. i, of course, personally love the one that she gave sarah, ifa and me. us and our never ending affinity for sticks. that sound so wrong kan?
i've officially given up and will not be pursuing whatever that is left. goodbye i bid you, sucker!
Tuesday, March 04, 2008{ 6:38 pm }
i looked at that photo and my heart dengan secara tidak langsung did a somersault and i had an ugly fall. and trust me, i have my fair share of ugly falls. just ask any of my girls. gawd! i swear that i could hyperventilate and just die and go to heaven being a happy girl if he could just gimme that another peck at the cheek. i suck big time at this game.
