Tuesday, January 25, 2005
{ 10:49 am }
i'm officially single and flying solo...and the truth is i like every bit of that.he don't deserve me and i don't deserve him.full stop.period.tamat.anyway, thanks del,sara,ifa and fifi for your comforts.sara's taggie really knocked some senses into me.muackz sara.love you for that.and del, there's no need for you to kill him 'cos he's not worth it.hahahx.i'm probably gonna start working at Swensen(jp) anytime soon.in a few hours time,i'm goona start training.saidah's selected too and unfortunately fifi's not...takpe lar...tawakal je lar.this should also mean that i have to stop working at JDL anytime soon and i don't want to.i don't give a damn.i'm gonna squeeze in time for that beloved job no matter how busy or tired i am.saidah and fifi got this crazy idea to attach me to this certain guy.i honestly don't know if that's a good idea.lantak korang lar.asal ko bahagia sudah....the guy is not bad so why not give it a go huh?hahahx...so saidah, i'm giving you the green light as long as you don't do anything to drop my water face.direct translation.hahahx.
went to mizah's birthday part on the 23/01 in the afternoon with ifa,fifi and saidah.went off to east coast after that to meet my colleagues.hang out at the water breaker.did some team chant.epin and ein sang some jiwang songs.then went to play pool.kak shikin,ein and me were in a 3-man-carlist against epin and i was proud to say we won.around 9 me n abg made our way home and i met fifi at wdlds.reached home 11+.at least that was a better timing than saturday when i reached home 1 30 am.bleargh....yesterday,me n fifi accompany saidah's to bioskin and now the people there have known me as saidah's bodyguard.tak dapat ar sal...went to swensen after that.then back to cwp where we met nasir.lepak with him at mac.my beloved sista,ifa, and ummu joined for awhile...ermz...the truth is i don't know what to update.i don't want to write about my feelings 'cos i don't even know what i'm feeling.my thoughts?it's all a bit messed up and i don't feel like straightening it out.yawnz.i haven't been getting enough sleep lately.i have troubles sleeping during the night.i ought to bath right now and get ready for training later..so ciao for now...
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
{ 4:12 pm }
actually,i don't feel like updating my blog... in fact, i don't feel like doing anything at all. motherf**ka jerk. Dammit ar. I just wanna go out and have fun so that i'll not think over this matter. i don't know what the hell had happened. do i deserve this?maybe ar. gawd, i'm so jinxed.again.empty promises all over.all those sweet nothings.doesn't he know that all those promises is the main reason for me to commit to this so-called relationship. bleargh. the two weeks was such a bliss. i haven't shed a tear yet.not now.i'm so so so so naive and gullible.i should have foreseen this coming.aargh!!!hell with him!sighz...i can't let it all out now but 'my happy ending' is a good way of acknowledging what i'm feeling.anyway saidah and fifi, thanks for putting up with my crap yesterday...you guys are really there for me.hell, many peepz are there for me except for tt jerk.
Friday, January 07, 2005
{ 1:11 pm }
well...at least somebody misses me...unlike yours truly...dammit ar...it was his birthday yesterday. didn't meet him at all.claimed that he was going out with his family.i believe him and i do trust him. after seeing my gd friends relationship wth their guys, i realise the importance of trust...aargh!!!this sounds corny and cheesy...17 hours left before i make my way to aljunied. hahax...to think that i'm countdowning the hours before i see all the JDL peepz...anyway sarah, now i can relate to you when you said you're bored...i know what you mean babe...haiz...sekolah susah,tak sekolah pon susah....i really hope that JDL changed thei project anytime soon cos only then me dad will gimme the green light to go back to the comforts of JDL...feel like going out with sarah,fifi,yannie,ifa and idah on sunday to catch up with eac other...but don't know lar...i'm just not the type to organise outings or whatsoever...so if you guys are reading this, how about it?however, for the time being, i'm gorging myself with food....bleargh!i should go to the gym or exercise one way or another...but the best cure is just to work 'cos that's the time i'll not think of food...
relationship is kinda a nuisance huh?no,no,no..i'll take that back...
{ 1:04 am }
i really miss all da peepz in 4/10 so much....so much to the extend tt i don't mind them calling shortie for a whole full day if it means to spend time with them...i'm also missing all the peepz from the malay class...aargh!!!wtf!!!i'm such a big crybaby....guys, miss you all...seriously....hope that we kinda bunp into each other...
and so....i've already stopped going to JDL during the weekdays and will only be back on saturdays...i wonder byhow much visionaries has grow? never mind lar..only a day left for me to go back to JDL..then i can finally see all my fave peeps like aisyah,bala,wan,kami,k7,abg jum and yadah,yadah,yadah lar...juice!!!!
tsk..damn my dad for forcing me to quit JDL full-time...he said the hours are too long and my health is deteriorating...which're kinda true...but i don't mind all that ar....as long as i got to see all the cute faces of i'm 21 Pte Ltd....bleargh...dammit ar...no wonder ian was forcing me to quit JDL...cos he noes tt all these peepz are cuter than him..if he ever see this entry, i'm sure he's gonna slaughter me...aiyah...wads da pt of them bein cuter?cos as far as i'm concern, i'm a one-guy girl...so no scandals for me or whatsoever lar...not tt it's gonna happen...erm...i kinda miss him...but i dunno lar...the distance between us is getting longer by the day...i just dunno how to maintain a relp after being single for so long...so please...throw me some words of wisdom....
