i'm so totally sick of all this...correction:i'm sick of 1 particular person who think that the world revolves around her.i'm sick of being inferior to her.i'm sick of being invisible when i'm beside her.i'm sick of myself.aargh....wadda hell...fucking shit.discriminating people.don't mind me.i'm just pouring my soul here.
Monday, August 16, 2004{ 9:54 pm }
i haven't update my blog for 1 week already.erm...nothing much has happened...well, on the 8th & 9th, my family and i went to my aunt's house at jalan bahtera 'cos we're having this bbq..okie2 lar...then the following day(10th), i'd to go to school for my dnt artefact which is taking me forever to complete.3 pm lke that i ciao from school with ifa,kaili and lois.we went to cwp and ate there.nothin much happened when school reopened.on the 13the something wonder ful happened to my friend....hhahah..saturday,erm..i'd got bio class in the morning.then did my dnt(again...tak abis2 sal)...hang out at school awhile.afterwhich, went to watch a soccer match at sembawang sec...something happened to me...which is not funny...haha...went to cwp...then ciao... erm..sunday...1 pm, i went to my uncle's house.4 pm. went out to meet ifa and fifi...but then apparently there's other unexpected guests...went to esplanade to watch the fireworks with ifa,fifi,raden,khid,razzi,eddy and blood.damn...it's fucking wonderful...one of the nicest thing i've ever seen...went home at 1030...and that's about it...
Friday, August 06, 2004{ 7:09 pm }
do you know what's the meaning of ecstatic?haha...i just understand this word yesterday and feel it too...i can't stop smiling now...haha...see?i'm going crazy at this rate.erm...apparently a few things had happen.like...sms'ing each other...erm talking on the phone and erm the other one i shouldn't say anything about it...but my friends know...heehee...thanks guys for helping me out...love you all for that...but i got this uneasiness...come on lar...he isn't exactly single...i want things to go beyond harmless flirtation but..hmph....i just don't know how to put it into words.erm...fark care ..gee...i'd been waiting for this moment and i'm already thinking of letting it go...aargh!!!total confusion.... celebrate national day at school today.well, i think it was kinda short...the celebrations and the parade...i was initially grumpy in the morning.i don't know..i guess i had been losing out on my sleep..this is just me.when i'm too happy, it will be hard for me to sleep and eat...haha...crazy me.on wednesday, me, idah,ifa,yannie and fifi hang out with nazhir, khid and faiz...got a lot of laugh...i just hope that we'll be hanging out together more often...o yar back to today.then after that fifanidarain went to far east plaza to eat...when we'd finish eating, ifa spot mdm nora,ms nora,ms hesly and mdm wee....we all ran to the nearest elevator...can't afford to have those teachers spotting us...haha...then back to cwp we go...that was when we saw sabiq.firdaus,faiz n khairul...talked to them for a while...soon anwar joined them...hang out againg for a teeny weeny seconds and off we go....haha...what great days these had been....
Wednesday, August 04, 2004{ 9:08 pm }
she will be loved.... erm...i guess so...yesterday metraqib for the first time..had to drag kaili along cos' i was like so damn farkin nervous...hehe...thanks kaili for your understanding...luv ya for that.and so...we set up this study date and i asked him how should i recognise him and he said he was wearing a white sneakers...yup that was like so totally helpful.believe me it's really helpful cos' it's the first that you will observe about him...yadah...yadah..yadah...went to the library.saw kak ana and abang long.got excited.said hi to them and it seemed that they were borrowing books as they need some reference for stuffs in their new house.then raqib was hungry.went to macdonald at civic centre and lo and behold, i saw abang long n kak ana there again.hang out with them,leaving kaili alone with raqib...heehee...i'm that evil.sorry kaili...my impression on him...erm...not the type whom i'll go gaga over...i don't know why...after all this it makes me yearn for him more...
Sunday, August 01, 2004{ 2:58 pm }
5 weeks more to prelims.it still doesn't still ring a bell.i'm still slacking.somebody help to straighten out my thinking.erm that doesn't sound right huh?whatever....aargh!!!!see..i don't give a heck about my language..aka english aka the most important subject for my o level.man...i seriously need some theraphy...i'm flying on a jet plane...dunno when i'll be back again...i'm currently humming to that song.whenover to kaili's house and we kind of log in to this website:http://www.wholivesnearyou.com.it's kind of interesting...go and check it out.... erm..my self study programme is gonna start this week.i seriously need this programme as i don't really do much studying at home especially on weekends cos' i usually need to cook and clean the house without much help from my brothers.what kind of life i am leading? i'm digging any song by alicia keys right now and lemon tree(thanks to saidah,fifi n salina.=p) if i ain't got you.well, i just can relate to this song,nuff' said.so here's the lyrics:- Some people live for the fortune Some people live just for the fame Some people live for the power yeah Some people live just to play the game Some people think that the physical things Define what's withinI've been there before But that life's a bore So full of the superficial
Some people want it all But I don't want nothing at all If it ain't you baby If I ain't got you baby Some people want diamond rings Some just want everything But everything means nothing If I ain't got you
Some people search for a fountain Promises forever young Some people need three dozen roses And that's the only way to prove you love them
And in a world on a silver platter And wondering what it means No one to share, no one who truly cares for me Some people want it all But I don't want nothing at all If it ain't you baby If I ain't got you baby Some people want diamond rings Some just want everything But everything means nothing If I ain't got you
Some people want it all But I don't want nothing at all If it ain't you baby If I ain't got you baby Some people want diamond rings Some just want everything But everything means nothing If I ain't got you
If I ain't got you with me baby Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing If I ain't got you with me baby
