Friday, May 28, 2004
{ 7:07 pm }
wello...
it's been a long week.got malay for a minimum of 5 hrs a day.phew...to think i pull it through...
mdm maznah isn't as bad as i thought.she got this grandmother figure.almaklumlah she just got the tittle 2 months ago.well, this crash course had been beneficial.i just hope that this crash course gonna do me good this coming monday.
my mum collected my report book just now...let me tell ya this.with the rate i'm going for my grades, i will never make it for my o-levels.so let this be a reminder to yourself ain, if you really want cut it out for jc you better keep your feet firm on the ground.and no mrs tee, my friends doesn't influence me at all so pls stop the issue of the bad influences rubbing on me.
he's a beautiful disaster
indeed he is.he's just like a tornado that leaves an endless mess in me.and that mess can never be cleared up except by the disaster himself.he comes and go.if only i could....i shall not finish my sentence...
sayonara
Sunday, May 23, 2004
{ 11:13 am }
sorry...it's been a while since i updated my blog.i'm kinda busy.busy with the various inter-classes competitions that had gone on this week.netball:yup!we grabbed the position for the champion.we rocks 4/10.esp faezah aka henry.kailin,our chong, n cynthia.not to forget ah chong for his actions for forsaking the soccer interclass matches.muackz luv ya all!!!4/9...great match...you really gave us a gard time.
got all my results.i deserve the bad and the good marks i was rewarded.well, whatever it is, i still aim for a minimum of 15 points for my prelims.hopefully i can fulfil this aim of mine.
yesterday, i was supposed to meet a certain somebody but i kinda stood up on him.instead i went out with a good friend of mine,ben.
talked on the staircase at the woodlands interchange n as if fate brought us together(hopefully),we saw anwar.man, the moment i saw him, i got stoned.he hanged out with us a while then he led to me tt he was going to buy his ffotwear alone.however, i got to know the truth when sabiq turned up at the staircase.then, all of a sudden, harrymeet n farhan(a guy from woodgrove)joined us.lepak n talked to each other for awhile.got to know tt they're going to town to celebrate kumaran's bdae.they invited me to join them.sabiq n farhan persuaded me like hell but then thinking tt i will be the only girl there, i reject their invitation.maybe next time,guys.
*sighz*to think that i could almost have him really hurts me.
he is not mine.he never was n will never be.
Friday, May 14, 2004
{ 12:24 pm }
hhaahaha....
my mid year examination finished yesterday.what a relief...phew..niwae i realised that actually that mid year exam will be my last school exam.dig what i mean?okie, after this exam we will be sitting for prelims and finally O-level.the very thought of o-level really spooks me.
my parents are working and hanie's babysitter is not available today.and that leaves me stuck at home taking care of her but i don't think i mind that much.it's just that somebody asked me out for a movie
but unfortunately i have to reject his invitation but he was sweet enought to postpone the whole thing.sighz.okie ar i gotta go now...muackz.sayonara.
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
{ 2:06 pm }
muh ppr finished at 8 50 today...damn fast sia...1 hr only...waste my precious time ...and to make it worse..da ppr was bio..i can't say i dun give a damn abt bio coz i do itz juz tt bio is so yuckz...nvm forget abt it..
aft da exam, went to cp wit nina, kaili n alene to eat breakfast at mac...ifa, yannie, sarah, idah n fifi still had their pprs going on...den we bumped into f*****..alene got diz thin for diz person n therefore we tag tt person and...i shalln't continue...
aargh gotta go now...my mum is being such a kaypoh man..
Monday, May 10, 2004
{ 5:30 pm }
man...doz harsh werds...cold stares..and da silence is rally killing me...sinz tt day few werds were spoken...n i really wanna tok wit her again but da stubborness in me told me not to...da soft side of me says tt "well,ain...are you goin to forsake diz friendship??she's a gd fren of yours...she has totally no idea wads goin on...are you goin to leave her in da dark forever?you can really be stubborn,man..."so what i'm going to do now?waiting for da right time now..but when is da right time?
niwae...mid yr almost finish...i honestly dunno how i'm going to fair in it.i dun really put my mind in it coz of da unoewad matter.
i really can't seem to concentrate diz past few days n i was told tt da same thing applys to da person at da other side of da story...
i'm really sorry s****.
Tuesday, May 04, 2004
{ 4:25 pm }
diz world is so full of hypocrites...backstabber bitches n bustards.i juz really hope tt they will perish from diz already-infested world of ours.i really hate diz world...why i'm juz so farkin unlucky...i'm such a jinx...to myself.
damn them!!!doesn't it hurt enuf?are you out there to watch me cringe in pain?
can't u juz see me be happy for once?
dammit...n u call yourself a gd fren of mine?why can't u juz tell me da truth?
i noe da news wil hurt u
tt's what u mite say.
but u of all ppl shud noe tt i'm use to bein hurt...what's your motive?to embarass me?to make me feel shameful of myelf?do you really want to know what it feel's like to have da lable "penghalang"?
damn!i can't seem to trust anyone anymore...da animosity in me is burning me up...
i juz wish i could have somebody beside so tt i cld hug da death out of tt person n to have a shoulder to cry on...n no i dun need ya 'sista'...ur da last person i'm turnin to at diz moment....
i dun feel guilty at all for hating ya rite now...
what u did to me is totally unforgivable...
i noe tt there's diz unwritten rule tt says tt a guy shud like ya first before he cld turn to other grl...i'm so surprised tt da rule imply to me as well
n ya bustard...
how da hell shud i noe tt diz will happen...there isn't any need for ya to lable penghalang.do ya tink tt i cld foresee diz cumin?do ya tink tt i purposely wanna be a barrier between da both of ya?
i juz can't trust anyone anymore...
